Two Faces Have I

will I walk with a smile on my face,  knowing I live a lie   lou christie  Two Faces Have I

Well now i have done it.  Broke my brain!  And you know how much that can cost to repair!  But what can you do? You have to have one, unless you appear on TV or DC.  So it is into the shop for me.

yes indeed a checkup form the neckup, long overdue.

So I am in therapy, like a fish in water.  Why do i say that? Well therapy it turns out is all about me!

Or should I say us?

Bill and Belinda

And that is the crux of the matter.  It had always been about pronouns but I have been concentrating on he/she but maybe it was always me/us.   Let me describe myself

Bill is antisocial, except for a layer of family ties which are tight.  Belinda is social butterfly with a bunch of superficial relationships.  She has few interests except shopping and makeup and hair of course.  She borrows heavily from Bill in this regard,  Because Bill is a bird fancier and an intellectual, though some of these interests overlap, for example, Judith Butler .  Tell the truth she made him read it, but she couldnt make him understand it.  Bill is a fop, or whatever word you want to use for long dyed hair, and lots of jewelry. again there is a reason for it.  You see they share the same body, and Belinda who occupied it later when it was in some dis-repair made some improvements the most substantial one being breasts which I have spoken about a few times on this blog most recently here.  (They also share the same voice, but there is a battle about that).  So when I strip naked and look in a mirror who do I see?

At this point in time, that is the issue, I dont know if it will be when next I write.  After all I spent 65 years, putting myself in this condition.  It will probably take more than an hour of gender counselling to unravel it.

But it has become increasingly evident that something will unravel