Private Lives / Public Lives

"If I was ur girlfriend,  would you let me dress u?"   Prince

I have for most of my life lived a dual life.  Public Male / Fantasy Female.  As I have given my female side more public attention, I have become more acutely aware of the issues of dual identity.  In a world where we are urged to be ourselves, to be honest in how we present ourselves, dual identity can cause a lot of issues.  Probably the most fundamental one is with loved ones.  If you hide an identity from loved ones, then you can get your head into all sorts of twists and turns.   To speak of one example in my life,  the love of my mother and father.  They are both dead many years, and when they were alive I wasn't one to share my gender variance with them, or practically anyone else.  Now that I have a much more complete transgender identity, not just sexual fantasy, the question arises,  did my Mom and Dad love Belinda?   That is the type of question that can give you a headache.  So ... if you please take an excedrin and take my survey.