I hope to post more regularly in the month's coming to explore the mysteries of gender and desire. This is a short post which merely presents a felicitous and rare event. I believe I managed to capture my Jungian shadow on a purely digital medium without Kirlian or other exotic technologies, simply a Canon Powershot. That saucy maid could only be me and yet surely not me.
Sunday, November 14, 2010
Standing in the Shadows
I hope to post more regularly in the month's coming to explore the mysteries of gender and desire. This is a short post which merely presents a felicitous and rare event. I believe I managed to capture my Jungian shadow on a purely digital medium without Kirlian or other exotic technologies, simply a Canon Powershot. That saucy maid could only be me and yet surely not me.
Monday, October 11, 2010
i wish i were in love again
In recent times, I have taken up a number of relationships in the context of being trans, and particularly in the context of being kinky trans. So at the current time, I belong to a poly family which means I am submissive to a dominant lady, and a dominant Tgirl. These are sort of casual relationships, which involve sex in the form of play. I should like to talk about poly, in the coming weeks since poly is very interesting, and in polyland polypeople have a whole lot of different ideas about love. Related to the poly is the sissygurl that i introduced into the family. Now she is someone that i have more of a traditional relationship with, if your idea of traditional is a bunch of boys who act like girls. That is a relationship worthy of a posting as well, so I will do that in the weeks to come as well. It is my second such relationship, and having a boyfriend, even if the boy is a trans, is something that i still have some trouble understanding, because i was never gay, and hardly bi, and now in my dotage, I haven't had a girlfriend in a while, and I have slept with a number of gurlz, who i tend to enjoy the way girls enjoy boys. Well if i say anymore, i will blush! so i will save that for a later entry. Finally, i have a bit of a vanilla relationship with a woman who i recently went on vacation with, and what is it that is so familiar? Oh right, she is my ex-wife, and I live with her! but recently we have been moving towards trying out some sexual play which we have avoided, but that is for later too.
The key is that none of these relationships is the sense of the song.
There are no sleepless nights, no endless fights, though perhaps the faint aroma of performing seals at times.
so i realize in deep in my poor bruised psyche, i wish i were a girl of an earlier generation, a femme frilly girl when it wasn't a retro choice, or a pastime. and if i were, a girl of my mother's generation, then surely i would love to hear Frank Sinatra sing I Wish I Were in Love Again.
But there is wisdom seeing the young lovers, chasing shadows, chasing tail, chasing their own tails, it is easy to feel sorry for them. I have wisdom, and know the limitations of earthly desire, or am i simply old. and did i mention that one of my relationships is with one of those poor young shadow chasers?
Monday, January 18, 2010
Lets Play. Did Anyone Bring a Ball?
Sunday, January 3, 2010
Among the Leather People II
I spent a weekend among the leather people. It was in some ways amazing to go to a big event with my dominant lady friend, who helped me dress like a um mature gothic schoolgirl slut, and i the only tranny in sight. oh well. The leather people were as always friendly and polite. A learning experience for me, part of the exploratorium. Some of the things that went on...well ..honey i saw some crazy shit! I mean.. fire play.. what does one make of that? Well first you need the key as was explained to me at the event.. When we say play we mean pain. OH! Why didn't you say so? Fire pain.. well of course. moving hot fiery thing up and down some willing souls naked body. removes all the hair.. better than a bikini wax. Of course it does seem to turn you a little pink. No fire play for belinda dears and no needle play and i dont' anticipate any electro play..though I maybe could be convinced otherwise. Of course there was lots of lovely bondage and sensual spanking, and some sexy flogging, and some carnal caning. Now that I can understand! especially with your panties pulled down or right off, and in front of everyone! so many eager onlookers. I mean there has to be some consequence for misbehavior..or is that a cause for misbehavior?